kalabuan 1

bakit ba kailangan ko pang ikahon
ang kawalang-hiyaan na 'to?
minsang natanggap at patuloy na
dinadama.

ninanais ko na ihandog ito.

sa tuwing ito ang gumagambala,
ang pagninilay ay nasisira.


hindi ko ito ninais pero sadyang
ito ang naghandog ng sarili
para lamang sa akin. at kailanman
hindi ninuman matatanggap.

sapat na sigurong sabihing
ito ay insulto - sa akin at sa kanya.
siya ang insulto. siya ang sakit.
poot na dinala niya ay hindi katulad ng
dati.

drops

i waited at the shed.
rain poured so hard that it brought its friend
of cold wind.
umbrellas danced to the rhythm of the
6:59 pm waltz of rain and wind.

the light from the gasoline station exhibited
the highlight of the night.
he even suggested me to stay.
i knew nothing of going home to trouble myself.

i should have put my hands on the pocket of
my jacket.
i should have let the rain wet my face.
i should have walked on the rain.
i should have stayed or should have gone somewhere else.
i should have kept my mouth shut.

the array of trees oh so sturdy
kept me in my direction of absurdity.

and,

i should have not gone home this time.